no one ...

no one understands you. how sad.

when I was a teenage whore....

maybe it's too much to ask. I just want someone like me. anyone. a friend. who likes Hole and Plath and faerie wings and Bukowski as much as i do. I love all my friends, yadda yadda but it's so lonely, wanting to talk about all this stuff but no one knows what the fuck I am talking about. and I tired of being the one who introduces everyone to the band or the books. not to be egotistical, but aren't I the one that does that for you guys? (I know who I mean and you don't so shut up)"I feel so alone and II wish i could die"

happy halloween!

youre so very specialbut im a creepi'm a weirdowhat the hell am I doing here?I dont belong here.I dont belong here.I was Courtney Love. I rule.

well, cry me a ri...

well, cry me a river you dumb bitches. boofuckinghoo.

I stopped upda...

I stopped updating deadjournal. yay.i hate you.

*sigh*...

*sigh*

XimustbeblindX: ...

XimustbeblindX: drunken ryan kids made me cry after the prom. =(x doll heart: ryan kids always make me cry.XimustbeblindX: 99% of them suck, am i not right?x doll heart: INDEEDx doll heart: and especally when theyre all..."dude im gonna get so fuckin wasted yo"XimustbeblindX: yeah, really.x doll heart: i hate that.x doll heart: cause, yanoo, puking and blacking out is beyond coolXimustbeblindX: oh yeah, totally. you're not cool until you wake up in a puddle of your own vomit.x doll heart: and if you die choking on it...x doll heart: hot damn. XimustbeblindX: EVEN COOLER!x doll heart: YES!x doll heart: getting a very unwilling girl pregant and ruining both yr lives?x doll heart: TOO COOL!!!x doll heart: being phycially damage for the rest of your natural life?x doll heart: WHOOOO!!!!!x doll heart: cmon marissa....lets be cool!!XimustbeblindX: yes! i'm going to go to ryan and have a 15-yr-old's baby!x doll heart: YAAAAY!XimustbeblindX: and then i'll get bombed and have unprotected sex every friday night so my hangover will be gone by the time i go to church on sunday!x doll heart: WHEEEE!!!!x doll heart: goshdarned i iwsh I were cool enough to drink.XimustbeblindX: we'd rule the school.x doll heart: think about it....why take part in an activity that has also known as "getting fucked up" "wasted" "trashed" or any such tihng.x doll heart: that doesnt sounds like much fun to me.XimustbeblindX: really. people are so dumb.

such a can...

such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful.i wish that this would just go.

such a ca...

such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful.

lets do the ti...

lets do the time warp again!cause you can never get too much pelvic thrusting!

wanna disco, wanna see me disco?

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what punk...

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what is your sin?

Pride~Excessive belief in one's own abilities, it has been called the sin from which all others arise, pride is also known as VanityGreed~The desire for material wealth or gain, it is also called covetousnessEnvy~The desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation Wrath~Manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury, it is also known as anger Lust~An inordinate craving for the pleasures of the bodyGluttony~An inordinate desire to consume more then that which one requiresSloth~The avoidance of physical or spirtual work

the buk!

what matters the mostis how well you walk through the fire.some people never go crazy.what truely horrible lives they must lead. there are worse things than being alone but it often takes decades to realize this and most often when you do it's too late and there's nothing worse than too late. she's young, she said, but look at me, I have pretty ankles, and look at my wrists, I have pretty wrists o my god, I thought it was all working, and now it's her again, every time she phones you go crazy, you told me it was over you told me it was finished, listen, I've loved long enough to become a good woman, why do you need a bad woman? you need to be tortured, don't you? you think life is rotten if somebody treats you rotten it all fits, doesn't it? tell me, is that it? do you want to be treated like a piece of shit? and my son, my son was going to meet you. I told my son and I dropped all my lovers. I stood up in a cafe and screamed I'M IN LOVE, and now you've made a fool of me ... I'm sorry, I said, I'm really sorry. hold me, she said, will you please hold me? I've never been in one of these things before, I said, these triangles ... she got up and lit a cigarette, she was trembling all over. she paced up and down, wild and crazy. she had a small body. her arms were thin, very thin, and when she screamed and started beating me I held her wrists and then I got it through the eyes: hatred, centuries deep and true. I was wrong and graceless and sick. all the things I had learned had been wasted. there was no living creature as foul as I and all my poems were false.

kill me fa...

kill me faster.

watch me.w...

watch me.watch me d i s a p p e a r

am I ...

am I your anything?here's another boy genius who's fucking gone.

I'm so sad. I'm...

I'm so sad. I'm so fucking sad. I don't know how much long I can go on feeling this sad.

*sobs* SO?????????????????????? *dances like a monkey*

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lollipops. wow....

lollipops. wow.

babydo...

babydoll just bleeds for me.

Here you come ...

Here you come sucking my energyAnd you suck it up right off the streetBabydollHere you are sucking my energy right upDrill it in my good hole so that I can seeYou are so much bigger than meYou are so much bigger than me BabydollMy raw hand, my fever blister, watch meWatch me, watch me disappear Here she comes, her pants undoneAll waste and void, all waste and voidThere you go in your Nazi carOh babydoll, what a whore you areYou sit around with your old ragHow can I talk when you've got the gag?Here you come sucking my energyAnd you suck it up, baby, right off the streetBabydollIn the dark I destroyWhat I began, what I destroyShe's hanging in the blossom treeBabydoll just bleeds for me BabydollBabydoll, she's on the fieldHer chemical wedding and her chemical peelI knife me and I slash mineAnd I knife me and I slash mineSick and sorry me, well, here you are as ugly as meDrill it in my good hole so that I can seeDrill it in my good hole so that I can seeHere you come sucking my energyAnd you suck it up, baby, right off the streetBabydollShe stares too long into the sunNow I want a cancer that the crooked eye spun for youI don't mind my energy'Cause baby, you are so much bigger than me BabydollLittle girl, she's on the floorShe gets it all 'cause she's a whoreLittle girl, she's on the groundShe gets it all for falling, falling downFalling down"I am, I am," she says"I am not free," she says"Help me, I am withering...withering...withering..."

i am a ho...

i am a horny kitty.

My vorpal blade goes snikerty-snack.

When yr mommey says you're weird, that's a sad thing. I am NOT weird because I'm reading Philophy in a New Key: Symbolism of reason, rite and art.....okay, so I am.

"Dear Di...

"Dear Die-ary,: There's nothing terribley wrong with feeling lost, so long as that feeling precedes some plan on your part to actually do something about it. Too often a person grows complacent with their disillusionment, perpetually wearing their 'discomfort' like a favorite shirt. I can't say I'm very pleased with where my life is just now... but I can't help but look forward to where it's going." -JtHM

i have issues. bu...

i have issues. but i also recognise this fact and do what i can to resolve those issues. i may have spent a long time letting those issues control me, but now i'm ready to take the upper hand and wonder about the world around me. i'm getting to be well-balanced, but i'm not quite there yet. how mad are you?this quiz was made by piksy

Well hello there.I'm Bethii. I own you.